I just feel like I have no hope. I'm not really sad or mad or happy or anything really. But I just don't feel like I will see a heartbeat on B on Tuesday at all, and it's annoying when my husband gets mad at me for saying it. I can't help it. It's not like I WANT my babies to all die and be a owner of a crappy uterus, but that's just the way I feel. I can't change it no matter how hard I try. My mom says to ask God to bless me. I did. I did the first time, and I did this time. 2 dead babies have resulted. Not saying He did it on purpose, but what's the point? He knows what I want and He'll do what He wants no matter what I say.
My name is Katie and I am married to the most amazing guy in the world! He is my absolute best friend and I don't know how I would have made it through these years without him! We got married July 4th, 2004. We live in SC with our 2 dogs, Cinderella and Prince Charming.
In December '07 we went off of BCP and we found we were pregnant in March 08 but we later miscarried. We found out we were pregnant with twins after our first round of Clomid, only to lose one at 7 weeks.