Thursday, May 7, 2009

Feeling Fine

I feel fine. I hate it.

I want to be puking and have heartburn and have boobs that hurt so bad I want to cry. But no. I feel fine.

Do you have any idea how hard this is? I have been having food aversions, lower abdominal cramping, until all of a sudden yesterday, they just STOPPED.

So I had a mini meltdown last night to Christopher. He tried really hard to make me feel better. I didn't feel much better but he did calm me down and helped me fall asleep.

I don't even feel as connected with this baby as I did in my first pregnancy, and I'm TRYING REALLY HARD! I am telling myself over and over "be so happy, be so excited, love this baby" and I have all along, however, my unconscious just is screwing with my head. I hate it, it's obnoxious.

I just want to be EXCITED and HAPPY and SICK!!!!

6 people that love me told me so:

Kim said...

I really hope you get some symptoms to help ease your mind soon. Once that Beta doubles once or twice more I am sure you will be feeling it.

Dianne said...

I am so sorry!!! I really think you are right in that your mind is not letting you fell happy yet. Just remember you have made it this far! Some girls don't even know they are pregnant until much later. I know this doesn't help!! But just know that I am praying for you to hug that bowl soon!

Nic said...

I am sure your sickness will come, and when it does you may regret wanting it so much! Hope the sick come soon.

Kelli said...

When you've been there before it can be hard to feel as excited...your head is excited, but your heart can't keep up! I've been there and I know it sucks. Just remind yourself that in just a few short months, Madeline and Addison are going to make you happier than you've ever been before!

Mrs. Gamgee said...

I get it... you want to be happy but you're waiting for that call from the doc that says "uh, we were wrong". All I can say is cling to your DH, your family and friends, and your faith. Peace will come... and with peace, joy! ((hugs))

Marni's Organized Mess said...

Wow how I know these feelings.

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