Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Feeling Blue + an IMPORTANT update!

I've just been feeling a little blue. For one, I had morning sickness today. WTF is up with that?! I'm almost 17 weeks! Don't mix grapes and Capri Sun...

I'm really bummed about not showing. Like I said, I'm almost 17 weeks, and I'm ready for a baby belly. I think I'm just having a really hard time getting excited. I really don't believe that this will happen. Do you ever get that feeling? I remember in high school about to graduate "this will never ever happen. I can't believe it. something bad will happen, I won't graduate." Then when I was in xray school I remember the semester before we started clinicals, "This will never happen. I can't see myself at clinicals. Something's going to happen." That's how I feel about this baby. I really don't see this happening at all. I don't know if it's the twin thing or what. I felt totally excited at the beginning of my pregnancy, but now, I just don't. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my baby. I love reading about what he's doing every week and how big he is (even though you can't tell...) and I love seeing him on an US. But besides that, I feel nothing. I'm just ready to start showing and start feeling him move around. May be then it will feel more real to me?

Here is my 16-17 week belly picture. Nothing exciting. LOL. The little munchkin is where my hand is. The girls on my BBC board (who are 85% all mommies and most seem to have forgotten what it feels like to be a freaked out pregnant girl) say my uterus goes up to my belly button, no matter where the baby is. I beg to differ, because I've had an upset stomach for a week, 2 weeks now and that is definitely all bowel and it's moving a LOT. I've always had a bit of a pooch, and I look skinnier than ever!


The only thing I can guess is that God is going to give me one of those little little bellies so that people don't say "Are you SURE you're not having twins?!" Cause I will beat someone if they ask me that. "Yes I'm sure! Well there ARE two in there, but one's DEAD and has been since month 2! Anymore questions asshole?!" I don't think God wants that to happen, so may be I'll just be a tiny cute girl. I'm totally fine with that I suppose!

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UPDATE!!
My Doctor's office called and said that my 2 part bloodwork (is that the triple screen? I so wasn't paying attention...) is back and normal! Baby is good! YAAAY! There is something to be NOT blue about. I really had no doubt that he was, but I wanted to partake in the testing because it included the US ;) It also showed that I'm anemic. I've always been borderline, but now I guess little butt is sucking away what I have left! As long as he has what he needs, that's just fine!

I also received my GIVEAWAY that I won from The Southern Belle Baby. I'm soooooooooo excited about the wheel because it tells me when I'll be certain weeks and when certain tests are and my due date and how preggo I'll be on my birthday (38 weeks, 5 days...) and Christopher and I can't stop playing with them at the Dr's office. Now we have our own! I felt kinda bad for getting the fertility yoga DVD, but I may need it again soon, or I may give it to a friend. I'm not sure yet ;) Thanks so much Jessica!!!! (and her handwriting is as cute as her wittle baby belly! SUPER)

12 people that love me told me so:

Lisa RM said...

The fat will come...

;)

truelifeofjess said...

One morning you will wake up and have "popped"!! Some Woman carry different don't let them you are wrong!!You know your body

truelifeofjess said...

One morning you will wake up and have "popped"!! Some Woman carry different don't let them you are wrong!!You know your body

Peeveme said...

I can empathize. My first pregnancy all I wanted to do was show and wear maternity pants. I don't think I needed maternity pants until 18 weeks.


I promise...one day you'll just pop. And then not too long after that you will be HUGE. For me, all I ever wanted was a big, fat belly! It will come.

p.s. people are stupid!

Ashley said...

I know the feeling all too well with my first I didnt show until I was 7-8 months pregnant and didnt need maternity clothes till then. Most people asked me if I had a beer belly it was very irritating to say the least. Come to find out though I have a problem gaining weight when im pregnant that was ny reason for not showing as much the doctor confirmed,

B MoM said...

I'm so jealous of your little belly. =) Mine is a balloon compared to yours, I wish I was cute and small.

Nina said...

I felt the same way you do, impatient. But I'm 18weeks5days and I'm just now starting to show. My husband is just now beginning to feel movement on my abdomen. Don't worry!

KuKd Chick said...

Yay on the happy test results! What a relief! Hey, enjoy that cutie-pie figure while you have it. Yes, the fat will come, as your first commenter said. Mine didn't start really showing until 22-23 weeks. :-)

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

hi there! i stopped by your blog before, shortly after you lost one twin. im so glad to come back and hear all is well with the other!

dont worry about showing..itll happen all at once. i wrote a similar post about being told i was small for my weeks..and then the bump came. :)

The Patterson's said...

I think you look great. I know what you mean about wanting to feel and look pregnant, but I'm sure it will happen soon enough. Just think, you won't have much to lose! :-)

Glad to hear things are going well!

Nic said...

You look amazing for 17 weeks. The bump will come but hopefully the fat wont join it!! Tiny and cute is better than a whale I would say!!!

Anonymous said...

I lost set of twins, then 2 of 3 when I finally carried boy to term... I was "underweight" and never looked P untl I popped at 25 weeks. I gave birth to 8lbs 15 oz after being told he was only 7 lbs or so..bah.
Enjoy while you can. I wish I lived for the moment instead of being worried or mad while i was P. Live each day while you can.

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