99 days! Plus an award!

Look at my little floating baby! 99 days left! Wow!


Wow that's like 3 months. 3 months and I'll have a KID.

Thanks to everyone for their cloth diapering advice. I have gotten tons of comments and Tweets. It has been GREAT! It's still a little mind boggling, but I think I have narrowed it down to a cover with an insert. All-In-2 I think?

Currently I am listening to Britney Spears' new single "3" over and over. If you are new, I am a die hard Britney fan. I love her. Always have, always will! I went to her concert in March and it was AMAZING! Her new song is... um... about a threesome... But whatever. I love her and it's so dang catchy. I hope Bumble B appreciates it now, in the womb, cause I probably won't let him listen to this one when he comes out.

Listening, that brings me to my next concern. My current FREAK OUT is this kid's hearing. He never jumps at loud noises. I have had two+ hands worth of ultrasounds and had a doppler, and oh yeah, went shooting a few weeks not even THINKING about his poor little ears. So now I am absolutely paranoid that he can't hear. Anyone else not have an easy startler in the womb????

I'm also looking for a job. I have THREE SHIFTS next month. We have NO MONEY and can't pay our house payment/rent for September. And yeah, October is tomorrow. So IDK what we're going to do. So I'm making a resume, and it's HARD!!! My husband is seeing if there are any admin jobs at his work for me. No one is going to hire a 7 month pregnant girl, so I don't know what I'm thinking. But I'm applying to a Vet Receptionist position, bank position, and hopefully something at his work. Worth a try. Can't say I didn't try when we're living on the street, right? For the record we got in this awful hole we are in right now because we overpaid a dang bill and now I think every single check of ours covers negative fees. We can't get out of the hole. I am going to go to a SouthernSavers.com workshop next month. Hopefully that'll help our wallets. I cut up the hubster's debit card and gave him an allowance hehe. I'm just going to stay home as much as possible. We live pretty far away from everything, so gas is a B. My work is 27 miles away... It's just really obnoxious because I get paid $25 dollars an hour, but there are no positions anywhere in my field. So ridiculous. Money is hard, and it's gotten ridiculously unmanageable these last 2-3 months, and I'm about to have a baby to feed and clothe... Thankfully I have tons of clothes, boobies, a pump, and hopefully some cloth diapers that I can wash with my well water and not have to worry about a water bill. We don't have car payments or cable or internet, so there isn't anything to cut out. Christopher may be getting a major pay raise (where they are changing his job title) and it can triple his salary. That would OBVIOUSLY be ideal! Then I wouldn't have to worry about working period ;) But I don't want to put my hopes into that. It's like hoping for the lottery. Too good to be true... What I would love it to get my computer fixed and get my Photoshop back and do website design (i used to have one, I miss it sometimes...), make blog templates, make custom graphics, siggies, for a little money. Then I could manage an Etsy shop for my mom (who is AMAZING and can make all that stuff people sell for $30 on Etsy) and try to take my blog to a new and different level. Just work at home!

I saw this yesterday on spearmint baby. I'm definitely getting a lime green A for my little Bumble B's nursery! It'll go PERFECTLY! It's only $12 on Etsy!


Here is a silly picture of my little one. He has his mommy's badonkadonk I think! (PLEASE excuse the panties! Sorry!)


ANYWAYS! One of the fabulous girls I met on Twitter during my cloth diaper crusade gave me an award! I feel so loved! Thanks to The Eco Chic! You're so helpful and SWEET!!



Here are the rules for the Over The Top Award: USE ONLY ONE WORD! It’s not as easy as you might think. Copy and change the answers to suit yourself and pass it on. It’s really hard to use only one-word answers so try your best.
1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2.Your hair? unbrushed
3. Your mother? BFF
4. Your father? Funny
5. Your favorite food? Pickles!
6. Your dream last night? Camper
7. Your favorite drink? DietCoke
8. Your dream/goal? Rich ;)
9. What room are you in? Dining
10. Your hobby? Internet
11. Your fear? Alligators
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? WAHM
13. Where were you last night? Bed
14. Something that you aren’t? Working (LOL)
15. Muffins? Blueberry!!!!
16. Wish list item? iTouch
17. Where did you grow up? Charleston
18. Last thing you did? BBM
19. What are you wearing? Jacket
20. Your TV? Off
21. Your pets? LOVE
22. Friends? Moved
23. Your life? Hectic
24. Your mood? Hungry
25. Missing someone? hubster
26. Vehicle? Beetle
27. Something you’re not wearing? Bra!
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? Pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? yesterday
31. Last time you cried? yesterday
32. Your best friend? Christopher
33. One place that I go to over and over? ??
34. One person who emails me regularly? Babycenter
35. Favorite place to eat? Depends...

I'd like to pass this award on to all the girls that have been helping me with cloth diapering or have fabulous cloth diapering blogs I have found helpful!
1. Paisleys and Pretties
2. Marni's Organized Mess
3. Impatient With PCOS
4. Raising Our Little Bean
5. Working On It
6. Mrs. Spock
7. Heather from EverGreen Moms
8. Sunny In Seattle
9. Hass Family Blessings
10. Mrs. Gamgee
There were more girls on Twitter, but I don't know their blogs! Sorry if I skipped you!

Cloth Diapering

I've been saying I want to cloth diaper this whole pregnancy. But every time I look and research, my head spins. There is so much information, I just quit.

However today, I think I have narrowed down what I WANT. And 2 types of diapers out there that coniside with my wishes hehe.

I want a diaper that you can reuse over and over as long as it is not soiled. Just change the inserts or prefolds. BumGenious is coming out with a new one called Flip that does this. Also, Cotton Babies has one called Econobum that do this and are cheap. I'm doing this because we have all of a sudden become poor LOL. So I think these would be our best bet.

Are there other brands/diapers that do the same thing that I'm missing??

Anyone have suggestions for me? PLEASE help me!

Update- I have learned that groBaby does the same, but they're more expensive. And from what I may understand is that you don't have to use their pads, you can use whatever??

Many thanks to http://fentonslee.blogspot.com/ for all the help she's giving me on Twitter!

25 weeks!

Wow 25 weeks! Just 2 more weeks until 7 months and 3 weeks until 3rd trimester!



BTW thanks for the support and encouraging words. Hubster and I are doing great :) Nothing like some pregnancy hormones to scare the shit out of him!

Getting Better

Things are better with me and hubster. We still didn't have the shower because like I said, he spent all the money. I was really really disappointed. I really wanted that shower, but oh well I guess. I think he finally realized how upset I was when I got drastic and told him how I really felt and how I feel every time he lies to me (always about money and drinking FTR) and how he's been a jerk with his friend around. He has been a lot more attentive. Let's see how long this lasts... I think I woke him up when I said I didn't want to bring a baby into his world of lying and money issues he causes. When I said I didn't want his baby (of course I WANT THIS BABY. But if I wasn't pregnant now, I probably would put it on hold) he got really really upset and totally changed his tune. Hopefully not that we are having Bumble B he will wake up and realize he's 30 freaking years old and needs to grow up and wake up. So anyways... Thanks for all the comments! They meant a lot! :D

Question...: Anyone have any idea where McMama gets these pants for her middle son? I love them and want them.

Cancelled

So the Daddy Shower has been cancelled. I almost feel like my marriage has too. I can't keep living like this, keep forgiving my husband for constantly lying, and just relive it over and over and over. I just wrote his "BFF" an email and kicked him out (he's staying with us for almost a stinkin month). Let's see if he leaves or Christpher chooses him over me.

V Day!

Today is Bumble B's viability day! He is 24 weeks today and has a good chance to live outside of the womb in case something were to happen! I can't believe that I may actually be having a baby! One of my own! It's crazy!

My nieces and BIL and SIL came in yesterday. I haven't seen the girls since February. Let me tell you, 7 months makes a HUMONGOUS difference in a 2 and 4 year old! They are completely different and so incredibly grown. It's amazing. I can't stop looking at them. They look so different and their personalities have evolved so much. R is such a great big sister and J has turned into a DIVA! R can walk on her hands, do an amazing cartwheel, and bend back into a bridge. I could never do any of that. She flips off of the swing set, it's crazy. J's hair has grown like 6 inches it seems. She's got beautiful curly cues and is speaking in complete sentences, and I can understand everything she says!


This weekend I am throwing Christopher a Daddy's Shower! We are having it at an apartment complex that my SIL's sister works for. There will be a pool, boy food (pizza, wings, etc) and Christopher's team (Tampa Bay) will be playing, plus we're having Madden 2010 tournaments. He and his brother are planning on making a bracket and all this stuff. I figured they'd just "play winner" but they are really getting into it. There is a pool, but I have a feeling they won't be using it. Christopher's brother and best friend are both stationed halfway across the country and are BOTH in this weekend, so I really wanted to do something. His brother is really bummed that he's missing out on the baby, and Christopher is so incredibly excited about the baby, I really believe that he deserves a little celebration with his friends too!

I got us some tshirts for the event, and they came in yesterday!

Cervical Length is a Pain

I had a doctor's appointment today. I know, again. This was my regularly scheduled appointment.

We talked about my cervical length. She said it was 3cm. She said it wasn't funneling or dilating, which is obviously fantastic, but it was a little short. She said at 2.5cm she would normally do a cerclage. She said she could do one, but she thinks it would just hurt more than help (I'm guessing she meant "piss your cervix off") at this point. She said she is expecting it to be shorter because of my LEEP (2 years ago due to moderate to severe dysplasia). The doctor last week said there is an outside cervix and inside cervix and my outside felt fine. The way my doctor this week is talking it sounds like my outside is shortened? Anyways, she said if I ever feel that pressure or pain I did last week again, to STOP what I'm doing and rest. She said listen to my body and do what it says.

So I read up on Keep Em Cookin' (if you have not been to that site. GO NOW! It's full of fantastic info and the girl who runs it and the Twitter, @keepemcookin is so great!) and it says 4-4.5 is normal for my gestation and 2.5 and under is cause for concern. So I'm in the middle low of that. But if she's expecting me to be a bit short, that's okay...?

I felt like I asked all the right and great questions at the appointment and now I feel at loss again. Has anyone else had a LEEP, been at 3cm at 21-23 weeks but had no other troubles at all? I was 21w5d when the ol' cervix was measured, 22w5d today. Should I be concerned, or just chillax like my doctor is telling me to? I'm glad she said to listen to my body. I think I have been and I have felt stupid for it, but she reassured me that that's okay!

In other appointment news, all of the results from last week's US on Bumble B's little spine didn't go through on the computer so I had to have another. Oh darn! He was finally FACE UP! He's always been face down! So I got his FIRST PROFILE PIC! I love him so so so much! He looks just like his daddy already! His has my old chin though (overbite that resulted in years and thousands of dollars to fix). He's so so so stinkin cute though. So ugly he's ADORABLE. I just want to hold him and kiss him and love on him. Looking at that little face I forget about all of our money troubles and worries about working and how we're going to handle this and all I can think about it "Oh my gosh. That is my little boy that looks like us and I want to hold him and kiss him and never ever ever ever let him go." I don't know HOW I will make it these next 15-17 weeks! I just can't wait to love on him!

22 week survey & pictures!

How far along? 22 weeks today!
Total weight gain/loss: 4 pounds up!
Maternity clothes? I have to wear maternity pants (even though the XSs are falling off) or a bellaband. But the bella band is really hurting my stomach these days. I wear some of the maternity shirts, just the fitted ruched ones.
Sleep: Insomnia has gone away a bit. I go to sleep at like 8, pee at 3, sometimes 5, then up around 8!
Best moment this week: My husband FOR SURE felt the baby. He has before but wasn't convinced. His face just LIGHTS UP when he feels him! I LOVE it
Movement: All the time. The internet says he's supposed to sleep 12-14 hours a day. Not mine. He even wakes me up moving, so I know he's not sleeping then either! LOL
Food cravings: Pickles and Ice cream! How funny, right?!
Gender: DEFINITELY a boy! :)
Labor Signs: Had some Braxton Hicks. Umm, NOT un-painful ones. Thankfully no preterm labor! That awful pressure was worrying me!
Belly Button in or out? Still in... still stretching all around. As soon as I "pop" it won't have a prayer
What I miss: Margaritas and cold ham
What I am looking forward to: My shower in November hehe
Weekly Wisdom: Don't do housework. It makes you contract. Just stay in bed :)
Milestones: Had another US! 4 chamber heart and LSpine ARE there! Yaaay!

21w5d


When I am exasperated with Christopher


This is one of my BFFs Ashley. She had a Princess Prince themed birthday party for her one year old. She had crowns for all the kids, and she even got a little miniature one for Bumble B! Isn't that so sweet? She is probably the only person that really acknowledges him as a REAL person, not just a baby in my belly. I love it :)


Christopher put together the crib! Who wants to come paint?!


All his clothes so far hehehe. One has a snail and says "Worth The Wait". I got that onsie a loooooong time ago. So happy to finally put MY BABY in it!

A Trip To The Doctor!

Last night I started having some pretty painful (well, I think so. I haven't had real labor obviously) Braxton Hicks. Enough to make me stop my sentence and whine and complain. I knew they weren't real contractions since my whole belly wasn't getting hard, just one side, the other, or in the middle. They hurt no matter what my position I was in. I had about 10 in 45 min-1 hour. I drank a bunch of water and went to sleep.

Today they just got more and more painful. I had a friend US me. She did a trans abdominal and said she couldn't tell if it was short or not (knowing this wasn't accurate, but my theory was, if it was really short, you'd be able to tell) because Bumble B's head is using my oh so fabulous cervix as a pillow and just burrowing his head right in! So I called the Dr and got in at 2:40.

I didn't get my regular doctor, but I didn't care. He checked me, said I was closed up, and I very nicely demanded an US to check my length. The tech just happened to have an opening at that moment, so I got to see my little man again! We got a look at the heart and LSpine that we couldn't get before since he was breach and had his BUTT in my cervix, not his head. He was pretty lazy and just chillin, not wanting to have pictures taken. Cervical length was good!

The doctor also measured my belly and said my weight gain (4 lbs!) and size (I think so small) were perfect. I told him some people said I was too little and he said nope, I was just little, so baby and I would stay little, but we were growing perfectly. That made me feel a lot better!

So basically the verdict of the day is- Baby's fine, I'm going to have painful Braxton Hicks for the remainder of my pregnancy. I'll be one of those lucky ladies. And you know, that's FINE! Now that I know the baby is fine and I'm fine and I know exactly what is going on, I can deal. Not knowing is the scary part!