Just Cause It's Halloween Doesn't Mean You Can Scare Me

Yesterday was my 30 week OB appointment. We are now measuring 3 weeks behind. You may remember at 28 weeks we were measuring 2 weeks behind. So the doctor ordered an US to check his size.

I went in this morning and saw my little man. The US tech said his head is lower than she's seen in years and years. She couldn't get over how low he was. 2nd tech to tell me that this week! She said my fluid was good, he was proportional, but small at 2lbs 11ozs. She then proceeds to have me sit in the waiting area for the Dr.

Okay, this may not sound like a big deal to you, but this office is notorious (in my book) to drop the ball and send me packing. So for her to make me wait kinda freaked me out a little. I was planning on waiting anyways because I wanted to know the deal, but for her to tell me too...

Then she comes out and says "She's (the doctor) not here yet, and I'm not sure when she will be, but you have to wait because I need to show her these pictures."

Ummmm. I started to freak. I was almost in tears in the waiting room. Like WTF is wrong with my baby?! Christopher was at work and I was texting him with NO answer. It was awful.

Then she comes out a few minutes later "Okay! Everything looks great! She's happy! She said you can go!"

Wow. Way to scare the living shit out of me.

I told Christopher I don't care if he gets FIRED. If I am in a situation like that ever again he is to be there no questions asked. I can't deal without him. He's seriously my rock, and I can't be alone in situations like that. The other day I got sick and puked everywhere all over myself in my car(wanted to know that huh?!) and he left his meeting to see what was wrong. I'm BAWLING (because I'm a baby) and tell him I got sick all over myself. I was expecting a "That sucks babe, but seriously? this isn't a big deal" but instead he was so so sweet and sounded so upset for me and talked to me for a really long time until I was feeling better. Because by that point I was crying about getting sick, I was crying because I have crazy hormones, and then it turned into how much I miss him and I hate how he works all the time and I want to spend more time with him to just blubbering crazy woman. And he was so sweet the entire time.

I just love him.

So the moral of this story- Baby is low, skinny like his daddy, I will be jealous of them both for the rest of my life, Christopher has to go with me everywhere at all times and never leave my side, and I am crazy.

Bad Blogger

I have been a bad blogger over here! I just don't have a lot to talk about. I've been blogging at Baby Bumble B a lot. I had a 4D US Sunday and you can read about it there if you'd like. I just hate to talk about my super fabulous pregnancy here all the time, but I've been pretty miserable and I absolutely don't want to complain here since I remember wishing this crap on myself. SOOO I've just been sitting back, keeping up with everyone, but not having much to say.

I have an appointment tomorrow and hopefully a cervical check. My belly has definitely gotten bigger so I'm crossing my fingers for a normal size measurement this week!

Not REALLY The News I Wanted To Hear

Today I finally had my appointment (since they screwed it up last week). They went ahead and just did my glucose test while I was there. I told my doctor that I still continue to have Braxton Hicks all the time and they are 50/50 painful/not painful. She checked me (and it hurt! What's up with that?!) and said "oh! His head is right there!" Ummm yeah... I know... She said I was closed up but still a little short. She said she was probably going to do an ultrasound at my next appointment. She measured me and said we are two weeks behind, that I'm only measuring 26 weeks. I am 28 today. I don't really know what to think about that. She mentioned the US again, so I don't know if she's going to check him out or not. She said I was long waisted so that was probably why..?

I've only gained 5 pounds this whole pregnancy, and yes while I joke about how nice it is, now it's annoying me because is my baby too small? What's going on? I eat all the time. It's not like I'm starving us. I'm not really worried, just kinda like "what...?" It's frustrating. I'm just having a very hormonal pregnancy week and have tons to complain about, but I won't!

I'm up to appointments every 2 weeks now, which I like a lot!

Hope everyone remembered today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness/Remembrance Day! I wrote a little post about it on Bumble B. I also bought a domain for it, so no blogspot anymore! You can still use the same URL I believe, but the new one is now http://www.babybumbleb.com! Pretty nifty huh?

Hubster-Isms!

I started Hubster-ism's over on Little Baby Bumble B! It sounds like so much fun to me! I'd love for you to participate! Just blog and submit the silly thing your hubster says. And I KNOW they say a lot of silly things. They're boys... ;)


Want to read more hubster-isms or join the fun and submit one of your own?

Just Annoyed

My Doctor's office deserves a gold medal for being the most unorganized crap hole on earth.

I had an appointment this morning. Yesterday I realized I hadn't gotten a reminder call so I wanted to make sure it was still on. I call the main office, which I HATE. They said I wasn't on the schedule at all and to call the small office (that I go to) and talk to my dr's nurse to see if she can get me in anyways.

So I call. And I call. And call. Call. Call. Call. I leave 2 messages. Nothing.

So at 9 this morning I called and it turns out my appointment WAS there at 8:40, but it didn't show my name because I'm "BLOCKED" because I have a balance. ??WTF??

So she makes me a new appointment at the main office with a midwife. I asked "Are they going to make me pay that whole balance?" (400+ dollars btw) and she said "ummm may be just like 250." Well I can't do that. I can do like 50 that's it, and she said to try, that should be fine. Well I have been turned away at this main office before for money issues. PLUS this midwife knows nothing about me. Nothing about my cervical history. So even if I get BACK THERE it'll be a waste of time because I'll have to explain everything and try to get her to check me.

I have nothing against midwives, but I'm not the most routine pregnancy in the world. I would like to be seen by MY DOCTOR. I would like to be checked by MY DOCTOR. I want to talk about my lack of weight gain to MY DOCTOR. Not someone that doesn't know me!

I know once I am in the hospital chances of having my doctor are like nothing, but that's okay. I'm having the baby. It's all over. But up until that point, I want MY DOCTOR.

So I just called and said I wasn't going and I wanted the next available with MY DOCTOR at the small office. So October 15th, here we come...

So annoying.

BTW! I am having a giveaway at Little Baby Bumble B! Come see!

Thanks For The Support!

Thanks for all of the support yesterday. I decided to make a new blog on Blogger. The new link is http://littlebabybumbleb.blogpost.com. Once I get a spare ten bucks I'm going to host it and have the blogspot removed!

I'm planning a HUGE giveaway! I am really excited about it. So please keep checking back. I plan on being here just as much as always and reading up on all my girls!

New Home?

I've been thinking for awhile about moving or changing my name.

If all goes accordingly, I will have a baby soon. I won't be trying to get preggers or stay preggers anymore. My blog will be alllll about my baby boy and my adventures in first time motherhood, cloth diapering, life, breastfeeding, etc.

I love this blog and it really helped me through some tough times. I still want to keep this blog and talk about loss (because let's face it, the pain never goes away.) and infertility thoughts, and it's my first HOME! I still have my parents' house number programmed in my cell phone as "home" and I haven't lived there in almost 7 years. It's where I grew up, and this blog is where I grew up.

I was thinking about just starting a whole new one under this same profile, but with this new blog I want everyone to see. All my real life friend's too. I DON'T want them to see this one, because I talk about really private stuff, and sometimes, them.

So I have decided to start all over. What a pain. Now, Blogger or Wordpress?

I want to hopefully somehow monetize with my new blog and make it better than ever. Since I have no job basically (read yesterday's post) I should have time to put in some effort.

I just feel for me that once this baby comes, it would be rude to continue acting like I'm a loss/infertile girl and talk about Bumble B all the time. And I want a place that everyone can come to. Is this weird?

I'd love thoughts on moving and my feelings!

Here is my first sweet baby girl Cinderella loving on her little brother Bumble B this morning. He continuously kicks her all night and day, and she doesn't mind one bit. I hope she's this content when he shows up ;)


BTW, I added captcha to my comments temporarily. I am having a spammer spam my posts so for a little while that'll be on! I'm sorry! I hate them too!!!!

99 days! Plus an award!

Look at my little floating baby! 99 days left! Wow!


Wow that's like 3 months. 3 months and I'll have a KID.

Thanks to everyone for their cloth diapering advice. I have gotten tons of comments and Tweets. It has been GREAT! It's still a little mind boggling, but I think I have narrowed it down to a cover with an insert. All-In-2 I think?

Currently I am listening to Britney Spears' new single "3" over and over. If you are new, I am a die hard Britney fan. I love her. Always have, always will! I went to her concert in March and it was AMAZING! Her new song is... um... about a threesome... But whatever. I love her and it's so dang catchy. I hope Bumble B appreciates it now, in the womb, cause I probably won't let him listen to this one when he comes out.

Listening, that brings me to my next concern. My current FREAK OUT is this kid's hearing. He never jumps at loud noises. I have had two+ hands worth of ultrasounds and had a doppler, and oh yeah, went shooting a few weeks not even THINKING about his poor little ears. So now I am absolutely paranoid that he can't hear. Anyone else not have an easy startler in the womb????

I'm also looking for a job. I have THREE SHIFTS next month. We have NO MONEY and can't pay our house payment/rent for September. And yeah, October is tomorrow. So IDK what we're going to do. So I'm making a resume, and it's HARD!!! My husband is seeing if there are any admin jobs at his work for me. No one is going to hire a 7 month pregnant girl, so I don't know what I'm thinking. But I'm applying to a Vet Receptionist position, bank position, and hopefully something at his work. Worth a try. Can't say I didn't try when we're living on the street, right? For the record we got in this awful hole we are in right now because we overpaid a dang bill and now I think every single check of ours covers negative fees. We can't get out of the hole. I am going to go to a SouthernSavers.com workshop next month. Hopefully that'll help our wallets. I cut up the hubster's debit card and gave him an allowance hehe. I'm just going to stay home as much as possible. We live pretty far away from everything, so gas is a B. My work is 27 miles away... It's just really obnoxious because I get paid $25 dollars an hour, but there are no positions anywhere in my field. So ridiculous. Money is hard, and it's gotten ridiculously unmanageable these last 2-3 months, and I'm about to have a baby to feed and clothe... Thankfully I have tons of clothes, boobies, a pump, and hopefully some cloth diapers that I can wash with my well water and not have to worry about a water bill. We don't have car payments or cable or internet, so there isn't anything to cut out. Christopher may be getting a major pay raise (where they are changing his job title) and it can triple his salary. That would OBVIOUSLY be ideal! Then I wouldn't have to worry about working period ;) But I don't want to put my hopes into that. It's like hoping for the lottery. Too good to be true... What I would love it to get my computer fixed and get my Photoshop back and do website design (i used to have one, I miss it sometimes...), make blog templates, make custom graphics, siggies, for a little money. Then I could manage an Etsy shop for my mom (who is AMAZING and can make all that stuff people sell for $30 on Etsy) and try to take my blog to a new and different level. Just work at home!

I saw this yesterday on spearmint baby. I'm definitely getting a lime green A for my little Bumble B's nursery! It'll go PERFECTLY! It's only $12 on Etsy!


Here is a silly picture of my little one. He has his mommy's badonkadonk I think! (PLEASE excuse the panties! Sorry!)


ANYWAYS! One of the fabulous girls I met on Twitter during my cloth diaper crusade gave me an award! I feel so loved! Thanks to The Eco Chic! You're so helpful and SWEET!!



Here are the rules for the Over The Top Award: USE ONLY ONE WORD! It’s not as easy as you might think. Copy and change the answers to suit yourself and pass it on. It’s really hard to use only one-word answers so try your best.
1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2.Your hair? unbrushed
3. Your mother? BFF
4. Your father? Funny
5. Your favorite food? Pickles!
6. Your dream last night? Camper
7. Your favorite drink? DietCoke
8. Your dream/goal? Rich ;)
9. What room are you in? Dining
10. Your hobby? Internet
11. Your fear? Alligators
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? WAHM
13. Where were you last night? Bed
14. Something that you aren’t? Working (LOL)
15. Muffins? Blueberry!!!!
16. Wish list item? iTouch
17. Where did you grow up? Charleston
18. Last thing you did? BBM
19. What are you wearing? Jacket
20. Your TV? Off
21. Your pets? LOVE
22. Friends? Moved
23. Your life? Hectic
24. Your mood? Hungry
25. Missing someone? hubster
26. Vehicle? Beetle
27. Something you’re not wearing? Bra!
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? Pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? yesterday
31. Last time you cried? yesterday
32. Your best friend? Christopher
33. One place that I go to over and over? ??
34. One person who emails me regularly? Babycenter
35. Favorite place to eat? Depends...

I'd like to pass this award on to all the girls that have been helping me with cloth diapering or have fabulous cloth diapering blogs I have found helpful!
1. Paisleys and Pretties
2. Marni's Organized Mess
3. Impatient With PCOS
4. Raising Our Little Bean
5. Working On It
6. Mrs. Spock
7. Heather from EverGreen Moms
8. Sunny In Seattle
9. Hass Family Blessings
10. Mrs. Gamgee
There were more girls on Twitter, but I don't know their blogs! Sorry if I skipped you!

Cloth Diapering

I've been saying I want to cloth diaper this whole pregnancy. But every time I look and research, my head spins. There is so much information, I just quit.

However today, I think I have narrowed down what I WANT. And 2 types of diapers out there that coniside with my wishes hehe.

I want a diaper that you can reuse over and over as long as it is not soiled. Just change the inserts or prefolds. BumGenious is coming out with a new one called Flip that does this. Also, Cotton Babies has one called Econobum that do this and are cheap. I'm doing this because we have all of a sudden become poor LOL. So I think these would be our best bet.

Are there other brands/diapers that do the same thing that I'm missing??

Anyone have suggestions for me? PLEASE help me!

Update- I have learned that groBaby does the same, but they're more expensive. And from what I may understand is that you don't have to use their pads, you can use whatever??

Many thanks to http://fentonslee.blogspot.com/ for all the help she's giving me on Twitter!

25 weeks!

Wow 25 weeks! Just 2 more weeks until 7 months and 3 weeks until 3rd trimester!



BTW thanks for the support and encouraging words. Hubster and I are doing great :) Nothing like some pregnancy hormones to scare the shit out of him!