May 19th Part Dos

2 Heartbeats!!!!!!!

I will write a full update with photos tomorrow, but I wanted to let anyone know who may have been wondering ;)

I Got What I Asked For!

Well, I got what I asked for. Nausea, feeling like crap, exhaustion... It's all here. I won't complain because I know there is worse out there, like not being pregnant, but I will just say one thing- It sucks feeling like shit 100% of the time.

Today is my FIRST OB visit! I can't wait! I also have another US before it, and hopefully will see my little Squishy and Babycakes heartbeats! I had an US on Friday that a friend did and each sac had a perfect and absolutely beautiful yolk sac. Such a pretty sight :) She said they looked PERFECT and right on track, and by today I should be able to see heart beats!

I'll update y'all on the appointment, and you can always follow me on Twitter because I am constantly updating there. Especially when I don't have the energy to get up and blog!

Sweet Kayleigh

Please head over to The Freeman's blog that they have been writing about sweet baby Kayleigh since she was born at 1lb 1oz 10 months ago.

Fighting all the odds, Kayleigh was about to head home after one last procedure, where she did not get enough oxygen to her brain and was pronounced brain dead.

Kayleigh passed away last night. Please go over and give her family all the prayers and support that you can. Their faith is amazing and it has gotten stronger through this rough journey.

Kayleigh Anne

5w3d US from HELL

So I went to my US this morning. I had this witch of a tech. Last time I went before I started the Clomid, she bitched about "your generation" the whole time.

She scanned be for what seemed like FOREVER and finally showed me. She said "There are 2 sacs, but there aren't babies in them. They are so small my machine won't even measure them." I told her that I ovulated 5 days late, so honestly the babies really are only 4w5ds, but she didn't want to listen to anything I said. I asked her to print a picture for me and she said "Ugh well I guess, but there isn't anything there. This doesn't mean anything."

Eff you.

So I left way more freaked out than before. I called a numerous amount of my US friends and they all agreed with me that my O date makes total sense on why there aren't babies yet. One of the girls said this same exact tech said "Your babies Nuchal fold is large, she has Downs syndrome." and the baby is fine. My other friend said this same tech told her every single time she scanned her "he isn't moving. this concerns me. Something's wrong with him." He's fine. He's the baby I watch 2-3 times a week. They both told me never to listen to a word she says because she is an absolute idiot.

I sent my picture to one of the girls and she said she would call it an early twin gestation and it looked great. Something about colors... I have no clue. But they all told me to not stress, and it was fine. But of course I'm freaking, because why wouldn't I? This woman basically told me I have a twin molar pregnancy? I wish I didn't even HAVE the stupid US. It did nothing for my nerves...

Well except...:

GREAT NEWS the sacs are about the same size now, and have definitely grown, so I think that's a great thing.

Excuse my nose. IDK why it looks like the size of Mount Rushmore.



Link to a larger version :)

Please Keep Praying!

Tomorrow morning is my US at the doctor's office.

I'm so worried that I won't be seeing Baby B tomorrow. I had a hard time getting attached to this pregnancy (absolutely unconscious. I tried so hard) but as soon as it finally sunk in that those 2 US pictures were pictures of MY 2 little babies, I fell incredibly and irrevocably in love with them both.

The thought of losing one makes me sad. I've been praying really hard that I see her beautiful blobness tomorrow. So I would really appreciate it if you could pray with me.

Thanks to those who have been praying with me already. I definitely have a sense of peace and real optimism for her. Just sometimes I get worried.

I'll update tomorrow with the news, and I'm really praying it's GOOD news!!!

5 Week US!

There are 2 sacs!!!

One is significantly smaller than the other, so we are praying very very hard that our littlest girl makes it. We have another US on Monday at the Doctor's office (these were all done at work!) and by then we should know the outcome a little better for a little bitty one!

Here are some pictures. I took these with my crappy cell phone camera, so please excuse the quality. The first picture is Baby A, big and fat, and picture 2 is Baby B. She looks way smaller on these pictures, but she's just about half the size of her big sister.

Please send lots of prayers that our little runt growns big and strong!!

Feeling Fine

I feel fine. I hate it.

I want to be puking and have heartburn and have boobs that hurt so bad I want to cry. But no. I feel fine.

Do you have any idea how hard this is? I have been having food aversions, lower abdominal cramping, until all of a sudden yesterday, they just STOPPED.

So I had a mini meltdown last night to Christopher. He tried really hard to make me feel better. I didn't feel much better but he did calm me down and helped me fall asleep.

I don't even feel as connected with this baby as I did in my first pregnancy, and I'm TRYING REALLY HARD! I am telling myself over and over "be so happy, be so excited, love this baby" and I have all along, however, my unconscious just is screwing with my head. I hate it, it's obnoxious.

I just want to be EXCITED and HAPPY and SICK!!!!

Lots Of Babies?

So I have been joking that I'm having twins. I told everyone I have twins in there, and I'm calling them Madeline and Addison (yes two girls).

Sunday at work I was freaking out about my progesterone and talked one of the Radiologists to order a blood progesterone test for me. Once I had the bloodwork the phlebotomist told me we wouldn't get the results until Tuesday. I was annoyed.

I went up to work today and checked my lab results and my Progesterone is

87.6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A normal Progesterone for the entire 1st trimester is 16-90! And mine is 87.6?! I still don't have my betas from yesterday (GRRRRRRRRRR) but I looked it up and a high P can mean multiples!

So my US tech friend scanned me this afternoon and we couldn't really see much (except for the enormous ovarian cysts that I apparently have...) but she said "Okay, that MIGHT be one, and that MIGHT be 2!" So I am going back Friday for another scan.

I've been kind of kidding about knowing there are 2 in there, but now that it may actually be a possibility... WOW!

So if you have experience with high Progesterone and singletons or multiples, let me know! I'm way too impatient to just WAIT for Friday. It seems so far away... :)

UPDATE! My HCG is 575!!!!!!!!!! HALLELUJAH for a high number! I'm baby baking for sure!

Still In Shock

Thanks for all the comments on my last post! I am in absolute shock. I was planning one waiting til my period was late to test, but we were going to be drinking all day Saturday at the Dragon Boat races, so I decided to take one. The rest is history :)

Today I took my butt up to the Doctor's office and got some bloodwork done. I'll have my results tomorrow. I peed in a cup though and I am officially pregnant at my doctor's office! They also told me my due date is January 9th!

I'm not feeling ANYTHING except that I'm HOT and sleepy. I'll take what I can get. I wish I was like worshiping the porcelain Gods, but I'll just wait. Hopefully I'll feel bad soon. I'm having that nagging pressure cramping deep down low, but I keep telling myself it's normal!!!

I really could use tons of prayers right now. This baby is a miracle and I am so excited about her. I want to hug and kiss her smiley face in 9 months!

Totally Unexpected!!!!

12DPO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



(PLEASE if you know me in real life, SHHHHHHHH)